do you remember

these black leaves of autumn 2010

that slept under the snow

with countless filters of the cigarettes we smoked

and maybe something important

already rotten like these leaves

i'm so cold

and all the names and words i cherished most

have melted down like this snow

i'm cold

do you remember

when was the last time i wished to get hit by a car,

to fall off a roof, to cut myself

to finally bleed dry

when was the last time my pain was stronger than me

do you remember

we were so careful

there were no promises to break

our hands just fell apart

and we forgot the simple meaning of that bond

and the very feeling that's already getting hard to describe

we closed our eyes

and learned how easy it is to just let go

let go

why in the world would we try harder

was that even real

all that pain all that weakness and sorrow

was that even me

i cant believe it

i pray for nothing

i pray for nothing

i pray for nothing

i pray for nothing 

(lyrics by Shizoeid)